I used to love Mondays. The weekends were too unstructured for me & I longed to get back to routine. Lately though… oh… say… since the beginning of the school year, I have woken up overwhelmed with the start of a new week. I get up before the kids and try to pray, but just end up sitting in my chair staring off into space.
Once I get my son off to school & get back home, that’s when I really get overwhelmed. The other 3 kids are awake & need my guidance, especially my toddler. I try to clear my head of all the thoughts… I should do this today, I should’ve done that last weekend, I wish I had done this last night, when am I going to get to that? And the beating continues to paralyze me.
This morning started off the same way. However, only one of my children was awake & he was contentedly reading. While he was reading I took time to cry out to God (well, more like whine). He reminded me of 2 different things. I went to a conference about a year & a half ago called Faithwalkers. It was a wonderful experience. One of the speakers I got to hear was Kathleen Nelson with Premeditated Parenting. She started off by saying that she’d been a Christian since she was 10, a wife for 20-some years, a parent for some-teen years & rarely does she ever wake up encouraged & ready to start the day.
At first this discouraged me. One more thing I’m not doing right… not starting off the day in prayer or reading my Bible or doing a Bible study, etc. Then Jesus brought this scripture to mind… “Jesus told them, ‘This is the only work God wants from you: Believe in the one [God] has sent.’” -John 6:29
Really??? The only work??? Seriously??? It really felt like the weight of the world was lifted from my shoulders. Why am I trying so hard to do so many things that do not essentially matter? (Well, reading the Bible & praying do matter.) It felt like God was saying, “Daughter, you need to rest. You are worried & upset over so many things.(Luke 10:41) Just rest. ‘Take my yolk upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble & gentle at heart, & you will find rest for your soul.’ (Matthew 11:29).”
Yeah, I’m up for that.
I hesitated to even write this because I feared it would make my Mom & my Mother-in-Law worry. But take heart, He’s got my back. He’s got our backs. “Give all your worries & cares to God, for He cares about you/us.” – 1 Peter 5:7 (Love you both!)
I hope this can be an encouragement to you as much as it was to me.
God bless you today.
All scripture references were taken from the New Living Translation